Went NUH for appointment. Hands full, left my fone in others back pocket. (precaution taken)
After appointment, its lost!
Called line dint die off. aft 5-6 calls finali its off!
Hope is gone & i prepare to mourn.
Its the third time.. Tats my fate. TWICE were stolen! Truly believed tis time is a pick pocket. I changed to a long strap onli in the morning yest.. n tat stripped could haf been an aid for the pickpocketer.
I lost it.. the best fone i ever had, which had mani picz n contacts tt i can never retrieve again. Its bluetooth function n the pixels were excellent tool for blogging ,its gone now.
Who can i blame?
Expected to get a major SCOLDING.. & true enough i got it!
before i came home i told myself UPTEEN TIMES, i mus control. But i still lost control within 2 sentence shot at mi.
Dad said : " u lost ur fone again ? (wif tat roaring voice n tat look.)
Me : i explained to him wad happened
Dad :" u have no IQ AH ? No brain ah? stupid ah? or wad? y lost again?" how mani times le? y so careless, wad r u doing?
Although i always put my nick as "ben nu ren" but i never expect my kin to see me as dis too. Its piercing pain.. Studied till uni for wad? duMB aftall huh.
Next moment my throat is choked,all the "wei qu" rising from my heart to my eyes..
I couldnt help it but i Reubutted ( second time in my life)
"what did i do wrong? u tell me ? i m afraid it may drop i left it in pocket, what else u wan mi to do ?"
my dad never allows us to speak up till 21 .. so had swallowed all unhappiness for the past yrs.
By the time i rebutted, the bowl of dinner infront was wet.
& he jus cant stop yakking n picking fault. Den suspect my fren. next blame my mum nt visiting the doc wif mi.
The best is he dint even noe i fainted n had been visitin NUH upteen times. NOthin but scold
since young, other den my first pager n weekly allowance somethimes none. ANI lost of fone or upgrading is always paid on my own. I earn i pay n i use. SO y shld i get scolded by him when i haf never get a cent from him?
i lost my fone, somethin is such a treasure n a loyal fren to me. Who wakes mi up without fail every morning. somethin i used to contact fren when i nid someone to hear me cry. I lost it all! can he feel the pain in terms of monetary n emotion tat is stiring within me den in him?
He says 21 i can haf my views, 21 im independent. But 21, i dun even get respect for letting mi finishin the talking.. dun even respect mi as a human! a daughter. Onli noes how to say damn ulgy n hurtful tings dat make mi feel worthless, so wads 21? Forget abt bdae celebration.. everything isnt impt animore
I tot he changed, he dint. 20 over years.. its back to square one. He is forcing mi turning back to the old ME.. which i haf moved out of the shadow. Now im goin back to it.
My life is empty, without a family who can talk n listen, without one tt i can reli confide n get security. Everythin comes n go out of my life. So wads my life?
For the two person who stole my fone, im wordless all i can say SINGAPOREANS are such a disappointment. U never noe ur action has caused so much PAIN in me!
Leave me alone.. i wana be alone..
