URGE!
wad a word! Often e root to sins& trouble!
it started off wif an
urge to rent " jing san shun" ,
urge to chiong finish within 2 daes,
urge to break the tv, when i wan to be e one being loved by e zheng xuan!
Urge to find a guy that is ideal (dun tink such guy exist)
Urge to reconsider my relationship(but deep down i dun wan it to end)
Urge to haf thousand & one flings bt dun get attached(bt its meaningless)
Urge Urge & Urges!
e urge of insisting to rent it, led me to many questions on my mind..
Will such perfect guy exist on earth? Oh man, he's jus too perfect& doubt im good enough for someone like him. Im such a lousy girl man. Hate myself sometimes. For being selfish,attention seeking,naggy,demanding & arrogance! Hate it to e core! But sometimes i jus cant stop myself for being that although i was supposed to change!
Back fm the short trip to Batu Pahat,
i have concluded that i can only be a player in a relationship guess in the short term, I can not be a good gf. Coz i tink im too full of myself, hate that!
Always hoping tat someone else will do somethin for me wherease i haf not done ani for others. Hoping he will appear wif flowers or even a card or sudden mit up one dae bt i haf not done tis for e past few months too. so wad e hell do i expect?
Seriously i haf learnt alot from e serial. Guess mani of us had gone thru wad e guy went thru. Already haf one companion but somehow or rather u feel for another. u dunno who to choose & dunno how to bring it up, as u dun wan him/her to be wif someone else but U feel the guilt & e pain & the want to be someone u like so badly that u seem that u are gonna suffocate!
On one hand, we wan our companion to be faithful to us, on the other hand, when we meet such situations we noe nothing else helps except saying "sorry". Its such a dilemma!
Zheng Xuan(e actor)'s gf in the show asked him, knowing that u& her may face e same situation in future jus like us, will u still leave me ?
he replied " everyone noes that they will die, but they still carry on living"
How mani of us haf e courage for that ? maybe i would, when god shows me tt he is e reason of me living.
LOVe.
JUS A FOUR LETTER WORD
yet, confuses mani.
guess four years of degree course on it may not even be enough to grasp the theory.
Wads love?
How long can love last ?
does love dies overtime ?
can love ever be replaced?
Love means zero adultery,fling,crush?
Loving someone means u gonna haf sex?
Can one love two at the same time ?
queries all over in the little brainy..
Saw tis scene yest in e temple. Daddy wakes up twice in e middle of e nite to check on baby to see if he was well covered wif blanket but did nothing to e wife lying beside the baby. He was a nice father tat i noe but does it means when u haf a child, e child will replace the status of the mum ? Who e hell wans to gif birth if e child is gonna replace the husband's love for oneself..
such a disorganised post! brainy is suffocating! @ least i haf pen it down..