6th of March a day that i would never forget.. Got the best present over the 2 yrs. Time snailed todae.
my plan at the swing for unwind ,was put off due to the rain.
Sat at e amk track for a long time..
seeing pple pacing up n down there,jogging, running aft e kids. I realised we r often too busy to slow down our pace to really see things n scenary. though they were parents running aft their kids,ah pek running behind his dog,clearing its shit n urine, i knew they were enjoying n happy wif wad they were doin which may simply mean,happiness. Mani of us used yrs n endless effort to seek for happiness nv did we realise, it can be jus so simple, anitime, aniwhere. sitting alone on the drains & realised e chapel opposite looks like a palace.. trees are so green n nice though they were weak they stood strong thru the big wind n rain.
started to haf some thoughts n pen them down..
生活到底因該是快樂或悲哀?
世界千萬人口,有多少使佣有快樂的人生
拿倒底老天爺是如何決定谁的人生是快樂的
或續一切都不過是一個輪盤轉皅了.一個人也許會有十二次來到人間過著命總早已注定的人生,一早已備安排,擺步好了.所以也許我們不需要覺得自己慘或可憐,也不用可憐比我們不幸的人.因為也許今世是他,來世就輪到你或我在同一個位置上.
總覺得下來凡間就以注定是受苦,打從一底達這世界就再第一時間被醫生狠打屁股,發出"啪"的醫聲,因此,我們發出,抗一的哭聲.也因此慘痛的人生也画上了起點.若你覺得人生有的選檡,那很有可能就是不哭.到底這樣會比較好嗎? 或許只有這樣才永遠不知道什麼是心和難過.
對我而言,我們就像天上的佛主,紳仙門眼總的阿哥阿姐門.我們最總的下場,做為導演,監製的他們已早安排好了.或許是用我們上輩子的成績單來分配的吧!
至于我自己的人生,我已走了20 多年了,未來是否會比較好,就要看老天的劇本了.如果我的下半輩子痛苦較多那我希望他不要讓我開心,日子貧貧,或許就沒那麼辛苦了.
那到底我這一生已經是我第幾輩子了? 是第一或是第十二了納?
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i was so near & we dint see,
I hope over e yrs n nv got
when it finally comes,it aches the heart