we chatted on msn,
To me, my god is
" this "invisible friend" to talk to when u're down"
Whenever i feel v low n empty i wld go to temple alone n pray. Even if u wan me to sit there for half hour i wld. I feel so much beta aft saying my prayers n worries. Even if i cant get my wish granted. I feel relieved.
It reminds me of when im young, although im nt a catholic, whenever i feel intimidated or im fearful of wad my dad is gonna do to me tt nite, i wld cross my fingers n start praying. Sometimes even standing outside the chapel. This is how vulnerable human beings are.. Often when we tink there r things we cant control or no longer hang in there, we pray, all diff god of diff religion. We still pray. Coz i believe all god does the same mission, that is to inspire n help. For pple who study christianity wld of coz say god does more den tis.
Glad tt he no longer feel empty coz he had found wad he wans in life.
as for me, i tink i still need some time to ponder..
Right now my goal is to find a career that i like & be able to earn as much to support my family (but he see tis as his long term goal bt not ultimate goal, :) ) dear god pls let me Noe wad i wan in life.. Im so envious of people who found their goal in life.
glad tt he wld be back in a month time.. meetin him is gonna be stressful, a kind of stress tt i cant express in words.
today is the 730th day.. n tis is it.
My 2 best pals are facing the lowest pt of their r/s.. heart sinks seeing them drowning themselves.
愛不到要愛的人痛苦, 愛上不該愛的也痛苦,相愛的人同樣痛苦.. 愛一定要經力痛苦才會甜嗎?
愛情,這玩兒,就算了吧
只想要一顆健康,案穩的心.. 健康的生體,來面對將要來令的事物!
加油! 淑慧!
