Monday, September 24, 2007; my sky is greying.. who can stop that for me ?
the sky is greying up..
sunshine seems to be still available
only through the little pockets of the "couple clouds"
sometimes i jus get tired facing masky people
or i shld i say i dun even noe who they are
one thing JL say was right, if we always meet up with bad people,fake people
den where are all the good man ?
are humans to be blame, or the society has tuned us to behave like that.
If no one wants to get bullied and start arming themself behind thick walls that cant penetrate, den where will love & communication gonna pull people together?
wking society works the same way. If every boss wana hire people who r good n experienced
whos gonna create a chance for the newbies to turn into experienced ones ?
more humans are reli getting more n more unappreciative
tis really make my heart chills
who many people nowadays, use your "heart" to communicate or to work for ur boss?
everyone is jus treading water(surface swimmer)
the society is getting so cruel
news reported a malaysian used an apple to sex abuse a little girl ?
what the hell!!
does man has nothing better to do ?
y isit always man doing physical harm to the ladies?
many men would say "yes, ladies are usually being associated to sex appeal"
so what if it is so ?
it doesnt mean we have to obey or serve guys.
thats our asset! not a tool!
guys are just lucky their asset is indoor and we can hardly see the size of it.
Plain lucky!
so you never noe how a woman is feeling
dont think you know coz u will never know!
well maybe some good man around which i doubt many.
like the quote stats
" a man is never married until he understands what his wife is not saying"its greying..
well maybe i shld look at tings fm another angle.
grey is indeed a nice colour afterall though it suppose to mean emotionless. Loneliness.
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
10:45 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007;
8 dayz..
darling came to my hse to stay over again. Cant imagine my life without her. Super lonely. qh left.. she's leaving on fri for bintan oso. Nxt wkend hw m i gonna pull thru without her.
sobs..
glad im gg for concert on sundae.
i nid to plan somethin for sat..
went for bbq at colleague's plc. All animators onli 3 r not.
bt definitely all are males! guess my compani is turning into a male wking environment haha.
tink the cold war is gOnna worsen.
jus dun understand wad he wans
dun wan me to hang out late
dun wan me to stay over at girl fren's plc, even if pple wan to teach me maths
nt happy when i bring frens hm , aim is to let him c who m i hanging out with
what he wants man
im tired.
sometimes communicating wif him reli chills my heart
or maybe i dun even wana try animore.
gonna hunt for a job real fast.
hope can get one before oct
gonna earn money to gif my kins
n to buy a hse n shift out!!!!
arh.. indigestion! i shld eat the appropriate amount :(
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
3:55 AM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007;
sometimes when i come home i jus wan a room of my own... a space for me to dream n do all i want.
i need a massage my shoulders r aching badly
4 days had passed..
going strong
n all i did is eat eat eat haha!
i cant imagine i ate yoshinoya set followed by 2 bowls of dessert one mango wif sago n zi ma hu! n i still wanted chicken wings n fishball !!
im craving for them after my dinner, grapes n donuts!!!
im pregnant ?
or m i insane..
maybe u dUnno eating helps to ease ur heart n oso provide sense of security. Now u know :)
chewy Junior donuts r damn nice!!!
im gOnna get it for my beloved 5 tis thurs for our gathering b4 qh fly away!
choc madness, blueberry angel , choc oreo crunch choose one!
hmmm tis r e selected ones i tot it wld be nicer they haf cheese , museli, strawberry , pandan ,apple n peanut butter!
its super long q n expensive ok?
BUT!!!! im still gettin it for u guys. Im quein up for it during my lunch break i deserve a kiss!!!
had been reading tis daz..
some that lingers on my mind :
Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then u mus forget the rules and play from your heart.Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbows.How do you know your love is gone?
If you said that you would be there at seven and u get there by nine, and he or she has not called the police- its gone...
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:21 AM
Sunday, September 09, 2007; planning the next move
sweetie month of august is over, time to wake up from the dream.
its crystal clear
had been a long time since i had such a wonderful saturday
cant rem when was e last
thanks to e interview i woke up at 730 on a saturday morning!!
im bad i made all else woke up wif me haha..however the e onli victimed was Ben the rest managed to withstand the bombings on e fone haha..
bt again earli wake up birds gt worm to eat! haha..
ate hotcake breakfast.. cant rem when was e last time i went out for breakfast
ate donut factory
ate thai express
ate tiramisu by the beautiful bay
most imptly i had the right pple by me at the right time.. gd frens r reli hard to come by im glad tat i found the gems.
Damien smsed me a phrase " JOanna, love is all around"
n i really felt wad e message meant
todae i reli felt it fm the bottom of my heart, IM SO LOVED!
im so weary n tired ..haben rested for the entire wk! wk was jus taking a toll on me!
tis veri moment , im still feeling the warmth i received today,burning in my heart.
my finding of the day is smelling different air freshners can make u reli high? if u wana get drugs, get tis! cheap n good.
its a crazy day at the mart hope i wont see my face published on papers tmr haha..
my day was jus so complete. thank you so much guys.
now i take a deep breath and a step back, now i see the rainbow.
its a begining of a new chapter
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:49 AM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007; im feeling wads life..
qh says its time to update.. i noe coz even my flobber box is gone.. too long liao.
I have left the learning lab nw at a better place. Intense animation studio. Nice pple there, learnt lots of things.. glad tt i finali found a worthy job n nice pple do exist! when u wont mind the ot n wld stay n wk for them u Noe, u haf found a worthy place. Aniwae, hotels had nt gave me good news perhaps also i haben been sending activeli. onli on weekends. Dear, lets rem to meet up on every sun for our coffee n we wld use lappie together haha..
sometimes its reli lonely to walk down the road alone.
when pple leaving under the same roof jus cant stop picking on u
when u ran out of patience u jus start to talk facts, nw u r rude
they askin u to come back at 12 since sec sch is ok, jc ok, uni stil ok nw 22 yrs old ... den hw long will tis be till 27? or even aft marriage they wld call up ?
i will haf times of set moments, get ditched , cheated, emo moments.. or i may jus wana enjoy some happy moments aft wk, or with frens ..bt everytime i jus cant enjoy to the max. life is jus so tiring. i jus cant haf that little freedom n space. How earli can i be when i wk till 7 or even later ?
met up wif insincere n mystery pple in the past couple of wks.
human minds r jus so difficult to be read
was down wif a serious throatichitis infection.
was so awful n miserable
gums swollen, tongue swell, even brushing the teeth n talkin hurts.
dun even nid to ask abt swalloing saliva n eating porridge.
when i feel so pain in the middle of the nite till i will wake up n sit
nite seems so long n dry
waiting .... bt i dunNo wad m i waiting for.
yesterdae was the release of the results, i did veri well.. nearli teared
i guess it was the best gift goddness n Dolly has made up for me for the torturous period of time earlier on. I truly appreciate n thankful for it.. This results had been e best i guess of all my academic yr n fair enough ended my academic chapter of my life on a high note.
its irritating when pple start calling n askin abt the results i noe they r concern bt sumtimes.. u will feel the tone is driving at some other angles. especially those who din bother abt u n suddenli call or sms. Humans r reli ugly bt i guess tats e fact coz im ugly too.
5-8 sept will be running bizzare at NUS for my compani. Those who have time pls come lt27 help me do survey or ur fren here will die of heat, boreness n pride.. coz nid to go round begging for surveys done.
work work work... tts for nw i guess hope hotels will call me up!
m i too greedy to ask god for a next gift ?
i guess so ..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
8:11 AM