Wednesday, September 27, 2006; stop whinning, relax people!
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
3:31 AM
Monday, September 25, 2006; penny of thoughts
URGE!
wad a word! Often e root to sins& trouble!
it started off wif an
urge to rent " jing san shun" ,
urge to chiong finish within 2 daes,
urge to break the tv, when i wan to be e one being loved by e zheng xuan!
Urge to find a guy that is ideal (dun tink such guy exist)
Urge to reconsider my relationship(but deep down i dun wan it to end)
Urge to haf thousand & one flings bt dun get attached(bt its meaningless)
Urge Urge & Urges!
e urge of insisting to rent it, led me to many questions on my mind..
Will such perfect guy exist on earth? Oh man, he's jus too perfect& doubt im good enough for someone like him. Im such a lousy girl man. Hate myself sometimes. For being selfish,attention seeking,naggy,demanding & arrogance! Hate it to e core! But sometimes i jus cant stop myself for being that although i was supposed to change!
Back fm the short trip to Batu Pahat,
i have concluded that i can only be a player in a relationship guess in the short term, I can not be a good gf. Coz i tink im too full of myself, hate that!
Always hoping tat someone else will do somethin for me wherease i haf not done ani for others. Hoping he will appear wif flowers or even a card or sudden mit up one dae bt i haf not done tis for e past few months too. so wad e hell do i expect?
Seriously i haf learnt alot from e serial. Guess mani of us had gone thru wad e guy went thru. Already haf one companion but somehow or rather u feel for another. u dunno who to choose & dunno how to bring it up, as u dun wan him/her to be wif someone else but U feel the guilt & e pain & the want to be someone u like so badly that u seem that u are gonna suffocate!
On one hand, we wan our companion to be faithful to us, on the other hand, when we meet such situations we noe nothing else helps except saying "sorry". Its such a dilemma!
Zheng Xuan(e actor)'s gf in the show asked him, knowing that u& her may face e same situation in future jus like us, will u still leave me ?
he replied " everyone noes that they will die, but they still carry on living"
How mani of us haf e courage for that ? maybe i would, when god shows me tt he is e reason of me living.
LOVe.
JUS A FOUR LETTER WORD
yet, confuses mani.
guess four years of degree course on it may not even be enough to grasp the theory.
Wads love?
How long can love last ?
does love dies overtime ?
can love ever be replaced?
Love means zero adultery,fling,crush?
Loving someone means u gonna haf sex?
Can one love two at the same time ?
queries all over in the little brainy..
Saw tis scene yest in e temple. Daddy wakes up twice in e middle of e nite to check on baby to see if he was well covered wif blanket but did nothing to e wife lying beside the baby. He was a nice father tat i noe but does it means when u haf a child, e child will replace the status of the mum ? Who e hell wans to gif birth if e child is gonna replace the husband's love for oneself..
such a disorganised post! brainy is suffocating! @ least i haf pen it down..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:28 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006; sharing session
hmm.. tis sept had been a tough & interesting Sept, learnt alot of new tips so i wana share wif all esp girls!
As i haf blogged in earlier entries, my permed failed. Although they haf offered to redo but i doubt im going for it aft much thought,cos my hair is terribly dry!! my heart hurts so much, i miss my silky rebonded hair!
Back to the point..
*cURls*
i was taught by Mark my hairdresser who serves for reds as well some tricks to do nice curls urself. For girls who wans to perm, DIY! if u dun wana end up same fate as me.
1. Get a bottle of Revlon Equave (hydro nutrition conditioner) onlu available in salon. - this acts like a "cap" to protect ur hair b4 u blow, apply any stling cream.
2.Get a bottle of Goldwell trendline freeze pudding. ITs for styling its damn good! style within secs!
3. 4 BIG clips tat wad they used in salon.
step 1 : aft u shower, try to dry ur hair wif ur towel.
Step 2: divide ur hair into 4 sections.
step 3: apply Revlon to every section. dONt repeat e same section. shake before u apply coz e grape liquid mus be mixed wif e green tea soln. make sure u leave abt an inch apart fm ur scarp when u apply.
step 4 : now apply e freeze pudding to ur hair. evenly on each section & then twist ur hair up & pin it up. Do e same for each section.
Done! leave it to dry, go do ur face mask, watch tv or tok to ur bf! haa..
Jus remove them before u sleep n u r done..
caution : if its not totally dry rem to blow e inner hair n e top hair dry before u slp or u will get "tou feng" when u get old tats wad ah ma always say.
Now haf another tip to share..
its regarding girls who haf mani fine lines beneath e eye.
1. im still tryin tis tip but maybe u girls can try n let me know e effect too. Every morning when u wake up, wash ur eye (try not to wash ur face coz ur skin has best nurtients when u wake up) , brush ur teeth. Next use ur saliva apply onto the fine lines.. Instantly i tink it reli works for me! bt.. guess mine too jia lat it comes out when i smile again! (maybe i shldnt smile so much)
*For pple who has dark eye circles*
1. Go for chinese medication it reli works! coz it can find out wads actually failing ur blood circulation under your eye. ITs actuli due to health probs.
2. Pound cucmbers n put it in stockings n leave them on your eyes throughout e nite.
I tink tis is more efficient den slicing coz tis can fit to e contours of e eyes better.
Hope this long posting do benefit some of u .. gonna go school.. opps! cya!
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:03 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006; learn to love myself more..
yup, so i will stand infront of the mirror look at myself n say is not bad aft all, its better than e rebonded hair. Surprsingly, i tink i haf convinced myself.. i tink perm looks not bad on me.. right ? wuhaaa..


I was taught tis new song yesterday & i tot is so cute..
it goes like tis..
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left ( means left hand)
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left , raise your right
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left , raise your right, stamp your left(feet)
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left, raise your right, stamp your left, stamp your right
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left, raise your right , stamp your left, stamp your right, nod your head
Father Aberham has 7 children;
7 children have father Aberham;
some of them were short, some of them were tall, but no one was just right.
raise your left, raise your right, stamp your left , stamp your right , nod your head & shake your backside~( do altogether) kinda cute isnt it ? haha.. such an innocent song, guess only kids wil haf time n enjoy tis.. we grown ups likely wont! wad has e society changed us into ? we're still suppose to haf some innocent young souls within us isnt it ???
*shrungzzz*
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:54 AM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006; losing confidence
I wana hide,
the last time i felt this way was 8 yrs ago,
When e hairdresser left me wif a boyish hairstyle.
heartbroken, endless tears,
i wished for the turtle shell..
8 yrs now, i feel that again,
Perm fades
leaving me wif frustration
money wasted,hair quality ruin,leaving me plenty of layers which looks horrible!
Received comments like didnt cant recognise u, wah, u seemed really stress..
omg, jus say it sucks lo..
it jus hurts even more
who can salvage my hair ?
who on earth can?
who was e damn ass who once said appearance doesnt worth a cent!!!!
-sigh-
all i dream to see everymorning is to see my straight rebonded hair again.
wanted a change bt never knew a change can make one despair..
waiting for e day when confidence returns..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:49 AM
Monday, September 11, 2006; new japanese perm
had 25 % bdae voucher at reds intended to go for a style cut in e end was easily persuaded to do a perm. not v nicely done. Looks veri chui.. curls on e right is gg off.. damn ! $135 spent! cut n perm faints..
e process..


e wait....


a moment.. all attention was on him!!
someone actuali tease e hairdresser dat she permed too long causes pple to fall aslp! haha..


the outcome!
glam look.. bt now as i face e mirror .. *sighzz* its bad..
first time a guy waits for me to finish my hairdo. touched though! haha..
shld i go for another round of perm ? i reli hope so lea.. tis like half half one.. damn sian. n cut so much of my hair..*sobzzzz*
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
11:40 AM
first of all wana thank my colleagues for pooling money n bought a suprise mango cake for me to cel my bdae! & i ordered pizza for them.. had a great time! thx guys!
*Mos! 24th aug*

@ ministry of sound supporting kenneth!!

e 4ever mr sunshine aka nUS Mr ArTs & most beautiful skin! so damn happy for u dude!!!

my part time bf !

ken& his pretty cuttie partner!
(shld i curl my hair? ... i nid some change in me.. dull!!!!!)

e supporters for ken.. onli 5 of us but we shouted as if we had ten! haa..
had a veri enjoyable nite.. danced till near one plus.. first time i felt so tired & wanted to let my hair down.. kinda tipsy bt sober& behaving still.. all i knew was dance, drink & haf fun!!
26th aug *yan's bdae*
sushi teh @ PArAGOn..

me & lynette
yan subsidised 6 bucks for each..wuhaha cool n i ate quite alot & nice stuff.. payoff my hardwk at wk man.. thx yan! mUUaaaacKS!


yannie wif her little cake & pathetic lighter as candle.. haa.. nice idea though *salute* to boon & ken wif e idea

MY Moo Moo ...

wif wei boon..

queeNie wanabe..
e chair v big n comfortable.. though it states no sitting.. haha.. pls dun blame e security shu shu for nt being able to catch me sitiing on it.. its my skills too good to be caught haa..
mani happened ,had a downturn, really bad.Realised no one was there to confide in.. come to tink abt it, hafin lots of frens bt how mani m i close to, to share my worries & woes ? so frens ah for accompany for fun ? life's full of dilemma .work is never as satisfising as before bt im glad to haf known a bunch of monkeys.. haha.. lovable bunch!wif a sincere & young heart. most imptly they make me feel young again! im jus like 18 like them when we work together haha..
supper time @ lao pat sat..

fun shot!

me & ReEVe

wilson & me

e FX 4 (FUJI XEROX 4)
guEss gonna stop & prepare for my first day @ sch. thanks to Daphne woke me up fm my slp.. & was able to blog n do Mask.. tired though..
will post shuan's & lester's bdae stuff another day. facing lotsa of prob uploadin e picz.. its such a pain!
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
11:19 AM