Tuesday, June 03, 2008;
everynight i feel like erupting when im on the phone
everyday i have so much to share
but on phone... nothing i want to say
sometimes tings jus cant be reciprocal
humans can never be satisfied
work is eundurance...
sure my endurance is building up but i wont know when it is running out
i have never cursed so much in the past now.. it is a daily activity
living up to expectations is squeezing me....
all i want to do is to
drop my heels, run on the field..
when im tired lie on the grass and look up at the clouds.. forming into different formations..
elephant.. ? rabbit ? or MONSTER.
:)
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
9:57 AM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008;
what goes around comes around..
i always believe in retribution.
sometimes is nt about who let who down or in wrong..
somethings when tings happen, it can never be erased off, forever there wil be the cut.
it took so much courage and effort to make the first step...
i tot tis feelin has left me and never will be back bt again im wrong.
i rem a fren of mine send me an email, it says "when you are in doubt,take small steps"
i guess thats probably the best way out.
work is suffocating
body is suffocating
situations are surpressing
everyone wans tis n tat fm me..
when will i get wad i really wan n need.
i noe i wil be strong.
i can be on my feet on my own again! tis time much stronger than the last!
n i wana love myself more coz no one else wil love me more den myself.
i know the day where the misty clouds disperse, i will see my warm and sunny sun ray.
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:11 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008;
我想對那關心我的人說, 我好好.
真的好,不要担心..
這幾個月來,我的人生有了改變
新的人 物進入了我的世界,
而相同的,也有幾個好友 漸漸疏遠了.
有點傷心
新的進來不致何時,要 離我而去
所以我 選檡保留回憶..
它是最珍貴的 !
總算有個固定的工作
但這可得來不易
這是用了爭扎,心酸,內疚和努力換來的...
也可能是爸媽為我集德,換來的
不論如何,這次我是幸運的,真的幸運
即然我已經選檡了,我會勇敢,努力的走下去..
不可以對不起他们
加油!
有時,一個人的時候是寂寞的
那天晚上,發冷,發湯,喉咙痛時真得很難受!
好想有個肩膀靠靠..
但這麼樣才能找到對 的肩膀?
有 或許,你覺得不可能是對的,或許就是對的..
人最大的問題就是想太多!
哈哈.. 開心就好
不在乎天長地久,只在乎曾經佣有 ... 哈哈
記得上 次發燒在台國, 第 一次發燒.. 媽媽在酒店照顧我什麼地方都沒去
很馨為,
媽媽從小為我的付出,受 的苦 和委屈 ,我會勞記在心.
沒她我都不可能活到 現在
前天,很對我起 她,很愧疚.
其實真的很愛你.
天阿! 我很多人要提有很多話好想說!
也 有 好想某 些人....
感 觸可真多阿今天
是不是要死了 哈哈
今天我再等人了 四十多分鐘的當兒,
有了一些 蚑發. . .
題 目是
男人 (MAN) 男人 要的是 什麼?
車?
錢?
性?
還是愛?
還有能撒種的洞 ?
男人長說不知道奴人要什麼
和 常奴人知道要什麼
維一的不同就是男人不去思考,只用嘴吧問..
而奴人要的很簡單,不是浪漫,錢或花
是男人的用心!
奴人不說是因為不要男人為了做而做..
而男人的問題就是常愛把,做得不夠好,哪裡做得不夠好掛在嘴邊. . .
或發 釋
而奴人最怕就是男人發 誓,因為會失望...
男人最愛你是什麼時候?
1. 當她剛把到你的 時候?
2. 剛結婚的時候?
3. 你懷孕的時候?(愛你還是孩子?)
4. 他老掉牙,追不到其他妞或嫩草的 時候,(家裡 還有根老草) 哈哈
男人說想你..
真的再想還是剛好想起你?
例如想 起你煮的飯
想你在他耳邊念他的日子?
.... 又或許. ... 時你讓他開心的時刻! 哈... opps.. censored.
aniwae.. in short... guys cant leave without a woman around
and woman cant leave without a man for doting them..
give and take lol ..
aniwae 男人一心想挖洞種花,而奴人只想栽培盆栽,絕配!
haha.. tink im turning insane. well come to tink abt it.. its nature, god make us tis way :)
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:50 AM
Thursday, December 13, 2007;
weary,
drained,
its contracting, sinking..
i trusted
i relied on the assurance
overly dependent
its time to wake up
the independent soul
human spend more than 3/4 of their life on their own
no one can accompani me for life
closest hearts nid to depart
silence is golden
reading that silence is all i need
i nid a shoulder badly
jus 10 mins
... of silence
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
2:21 AM
Sunday, December 09, 2007;
................ the week was jus so torturous
work is so horrible
meeting people's expectation
can really make one so unhappy
if u dun meet the mark
u will be letting so mani pple down
i seem to have got back to my old self
the one i look down on.
jus hope it wil land on my legs
bt i jus cant
everyone will tell u to fight for urself
so tired
wisdom toothache is so painful..
gonna get it out on thurs i hope its a wise decision bt.. there goes 500 bucks
sigh.
finali i made up for my soul.
a heavy damage shopping!
nv spend so much in a day of my life in 22 yrs!
figure is a secret
those wana shop wif JASMINE pls reconsider haha..
bt is so nice to have her ard.
i love her jus so much!!!
mon onwards wil be a real tough wk.
prepared to get all the @@#$%%^...
oh ya last wk's xmas party was nt too bad though
the highlights?
the puking part and of coz some of the forgotten conversations haha..
met up wif qh n eunice
so mani has happened
old sch daes r over
everyone has changed...
onli one wish, keep ur souls balance tats e way to go far.
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
3:10 AM
Sunday, November 25, 2007; contented is happiness
im enjoying happiness
coz i have attained contentment
Is either i havent been appreciating what i have for the past 22 yrs of life or my life was real shitty
i feel im growing old
at heart
bt for most who sees me on the appearance. (i reli look like im 24/28) ??
thanks to cs.
is either u get more white hairs or u have darker eye circles
and be sure all ur ot pay will go to your eye mask and facial packages.
for most of my peers i guess they haf found their career direction bt for me.. i guess im still at the cross juctions.
Rational or Emotional ?
Sometimes im reli amazed with myself nv tot i can wk till so late everyday perhaps its gd. At least i feel occupied. BUt i love my job! hahahhaa..
my motivation to wk is FRIDAE!!!
Weekends are reserved to spend time with my soul.
bt of coz fortnightly i will expect some damages whenver Jasmine calls haha..
i used to tink happiness is eating mac bkfast with ur love one on sun morning
bt tats nt the case
happiness can be attained with the slightest tings u do without making any special effort.
seems like many of us are tryin to hard to attain happiness which have caused them to overlook so many other ways that it could be attain without much effort
life is so different nw. Perhaps for me it has changed
Remebering the times when we meet up every sat for shoppin chatting and slogging at drive thru/ 24 hrs mac
grumbling abt the tonnes of sch wk and hw annoying is our family
now one is busy flying ard doing events
the other busy finishing her last yr and juggling her wk and r/s at the same time
whereas me.. submerging myself into wk and enjoying my life on wkends.
suddenli i have an urge to say tis hear. " mummy, i really love you"
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:34 PM
Saturday, November 24, 2007; contented is happiness
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
7:59 PM